Do it again, I'll do it again.

Skin so taut my knuckles are white,
Lipstick smeared sick
Lonely world inside my eyes.
Bite the skin on the backs of my hands,
Bite the bullet and
Take a chance-
How many little white ones will do the trick?
Make my heart skip
one
thousand
beats?

Do it again, I’ll do it again,
If you let me again, I’ll
Hurt you again.
My stare is like a missile and I shot you
Down, down, down.

You know I’ve sunk this low before
I’ve reached the murky depths
Of death
‘We don’t know if she’ll live or not,
But nothing seems to have happened yet’
But was it something I regret?
I sadly let you know now,
No.
I.
Can do it.
Again.

My girl, you are
You are so smart,
A beautiful friend  with an
imaginary heart

(Scum. Dog shit,
cat fight,
Blue fit,
Fight me, dipshit!
Can’t you take it?)

I think we’re fighting a war,
And we’re keeping it to ourselves.
I play with tanks in my room and
Breathe in Agent Orange, and
when I’m wounded I retreat to the
trench I call my bed.

My mirror hangs just like a cross
On walls of white inside my room,
And when I lay down,
Bleeding,
Bleeding,
I stare at myself and pray.